I’m a planner. Ever since I can remember, the next step of my life has been planned out — I’ve always known where I wanted to go. After high school, I knew I wanted to go to college. I knew I wanted to live away from home. I knew that I wanted to study abroad. I knew I wanted to work for the school paper. Etc.
And even though I had to figure a few things out during my time in college, I had the luxury of doing so in a controlled environment. I had people there to point me in the right direction. We’ve all been guided, in one way or another, to where we are now. But now that we’re on the verge of graduating, all of that is about to change.
There are a million possibilities laid out in front of us, and now we have to choose which road to take. For someone who likes to know what the next year of my life will look like, this feels pretty terrifying. Very few things are concrete anymore; all I know is I want to be employed and preferably living in a city — that’s not really much to go off of.
I recently tried explaining this feeling to one of my colleagues. I told her that I’m not afraid of things not working out for me; rather, I’m afraid of making the best possible decision for myself because it’s hard to tell what that is anymore. Her response surprised and delighted me.
She told me that’s the fun part of growing up. You get to try out new things, and if something does’t work out, there is always another path you can take. She said I should take advantage of the fact that I no longer have to stick to an agenda. Just have fun and go with your gut, because as long as you’re working hard (which we all obviously have no problem with) things will work out. And she’s right!
So, if you’re feeling like me right now, I hope this little nugget of insight helps calm your nerves. The world is our oyster — let’s embrace it.