Where do I belong?

This whole experience has got me thinking a lot lately. Is this really for me? Throughout my four years of college I worked hard to get where I am today. Stressed over grammar, AP style, and campaigns for different clients. Spent long hours in Allen and Agate Hall the nights before a huge assignment was due, and drinking shots of five hour energy the next day to make it through my classes. I sacrificed a lot thinking I knew exactly where I wanted to go and what I wanted to do with my life. Now that I’m almost to the finish line, I’m stumped. Is this really what I want to do for the rest of my life?

I have always been a huge commitment phoebe when it comes to anything. I hate committing to things because I worry I might miss out on something better. Is this what is coming into play now that everything is finally starting to seem so real? Or is there more to it? This is one reason why I chose to do both advertising and public relations at the University of Oregon, I couldn’t choose between the two of them.

For the PDXSX, I received the opportunity to work at a public relations agency and as the weeks progress I can’t help but think about what I’m potentially missing out on at an advertising agency. I try to remind myself that I am just an intern and still in the process of learning everything. I won’t get those exciting campaigns that I desire until I am much more accomplished and have earned my stripes at the organization I choose to work for.

This internship has been my first so it’s hard to say if I am just having cold feet because it all seems so real now or if it’s because I don’t know if it’s a good fit for me. I still have a few weeks left and I am excited to see what is to come. I can’t be grateful enough for all the new skills I have acquired from this experience. Even if I do end up looking at different areas within public relations or decide to focus more on advertising, I will have a much better idea of what I want because of this internship.

Sarah Brown


About sarahbrown90

I studied advertising and public relations in the SOJC at the University of Oregon. I am currently doing the Portland Experience this Fall and through that program I connected with the Scene Marketing Group and was hired to be the communications intern.
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6 Responses to Where do I belong?

  1. I don’t think you’re alone in this unsure feeling surrounding your career choice. I am doing a lot more social media right now and kicking myself in the butt for not double majoring in PR and AD. Every person has about 6 careers in their lifetime so although you feel like you’re committing to something now, you’ll be able to use that experience to dive into a new field if the opportunity comes your way. Take everything as a learning experience, even your first job. Keep in mind that you are lucky if you find joy in going to work every day. Thanks for sharing your feelings!

  2. pdxsx says:

    You are absolutely right. An internship helps you figure out what you want to do after college or, even more valuable, what you DO NOT want to do after college. My advice, go to your internship every day, work hard, earn portfolio materials and LORs and then narrow down your search. You have YEARS to figure out your actual career. 🙂

  3. hailayn says:

    I’m going to take a guess and say we had a pretty similar Myers-Briggs personality code. I have trouble making decisions too, simply because I don’t want to limit myself. This trait is both a blessing a curse. I think it’s best to recognize what you truly enjoy and finding a way to capitalize on that. Best of luck. I know you’ll find a “home” within a career in no time.

  4. anabouls says:

    Great post, Sarah. I definitely think most people at this point in their life have doubts. I’m just now starting to realize the wide range of skills I have acquired over the years and the wide range of industries they can reach into. I always looked at my summer jobs as opportunities to learn what I don’t want to do, and I am just now starting to accept that it just might be true for all jobs. I guess that’s all just part of the journey.

  5. Thanks for sharing, Sarah. As confusing as it is to start questioning our career choices, I think that your early consideration is really important. Some people go their whole lives working in jobs they aren’t passionate about. We’re so young, and we’re lucky to be able to try out these careers straight out of college. We have plenty of time to try other jobs until we find the perfect fit. Good luck in your decision-making!

  6. Great post Sarah! I have a really hard time with decisions too, but I think it’s natural to second guess ourselves, especially at our age. But like Liz said the other day, do as many internships as possible, so you have plenty of time to do an advertising internship after this one and figure out where you truly think you fit in!

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