This whole experience has got me thinking a lot lately. Is this really for me? Throughout my four years of college I worked hard to get where I am today. Stressed over grammar, AP style, and campaigns for different clients. Spent long hours in Allen and Agate Hall the nights before a huge assignment was due, and drinking shots of five hour energy the next day to make it through my classes. I sacrificed a lot thinking I knew exactly where I wanted to go and what I wanted to do with my life. Now that I’m almost to the finish line, I’m stumped. Is this really what I want to do for the rest of my life?
I have always been a huge commitment phoebe when it comes to anything. I hate committing to things because I worry I might miss out on something better. Is this what is coming into play now that everything is finally starting to seem so real? Or is there more to it? This is one reason why I chose to do both advertising and public relations at the University of Oregon, I couldn’t choose between the two of them.
For the PDXSX, I received the opportunity to work at a public relations agency and as the weeks progress I can’t help but think about what I’m potentially missing out on at an advertising agency. I try to remind myself that I am just an intern and still in the process of learning everything. I won’t get those exciting campaigns that I desire until I am much more accomplished and have earned my stripes at the organization I choose to work for.
This internship has been my first so it’s hard to say if I am just having cold feet because it all seems so real now or if it’s because I don’t know if it’s a good fit for me. I still have a few weeks left and I am excited to see what is to come. I can’t be grateful enough for all the new skills I have acquired from this experience. Even if I do end up looking at different areas within public relations or decide to focus more on advertising, I will have a much better idea of what I want because of this internship.